Thursday, August 19, 2010
We Did This. All of Us.
We started this blog in January 2009 as a lark. A joke. I hardly knew what a blog was before I met Jenny Jerkface. I started it because I was teasing her about the fact that she wouldn't let me write all-Twilight content on the other blog she'd started and asked me to contribute to... As we worked on both and lobbed semi-funny Twilight-themed blog posts at each other during those first few months (nobody else was reading them!), we joked about the possibility of our Twilight blog taking off. It was never even a remote a possibility in our minds. That's what made it funny. "Wouldn't THAT be funny?!" we'd say. Yes. Yes, it would be. A few days ago, we rolled over the million visits mark. And a million hits later, I'd like to think it's still funny. But because you're laughing with us, not at us. We did this. All of us.
On the morning of the second day of BlogHer, the speakers included the winners of the International Activists Scholarship. Hearing - in their own words - from these young women who are using their blogs to make a difference in the world made me want to cry (it is long and dense but I would highly recommend going here and reading the entire transcript). I was so moved by these women, who had put their very lives - and the lives of their families - on the line to write their blogs and get their messages out to the world. Their safety was so compromised by their blogging that there were people stationed at all of the doors to the Hilton's Grand Ballroom that morning letting us know that no photographs or video would be allowed, lest they be identified by the bad guys. It was literally a matter of life and death for them. I got choked up. And then I leaned over and told Jenny Jerkface that as soon as they finished speaking and I stopped snotting all over the place, I was going back to our room and deleting all of our content. I was joking, but still...
I felt like my contribution in the blogosphere was 99.9999% meaningless frivolity. I felt...inconsequential. At best. Utterly ridiculous at worst. But then I thought about it some more. And I realized that we DO do something important, too: we make people happy. Present company included. I laugh more now. Hopefully you do, too. Sure, I am more bedraggled, sleep deprived, and unproductive at work, and my house is messier and I burn dinner with alarming regularity, but it's totally worth it. Because we found YOU. All of you, and we have this amazing clubhouse where we can be...ourselves. We can shed all the stresses of life and just sit around and be rude and crude and be unjudged and laugh. Holy shit, do we laugh.
We might not be doing anything remotely similar to the scholarship winners at BlogHer, but it's ok - we're doing something. And on its own level, it IS important. It has fundamentally changed people and their lives. I know it has changed me. JJ goaded me into this over a year and a half ago and here we are today... Real genuine friendships have been formed here. People all over the world have connected with other people on a level that they may not have ever previously connected with anyone in real life in their hometown, their office, their church, their community. We did this. All of us, together.
I hope I don't sound conceited or full of myself. It's just that I'm stupendously proud of all of this and all of you. I don't pat myself on the back that much. But I want to now. As Mr. Snarky said the other night, "I've been proud of you, and I'm glad you're finally proud of yourself."
And I am.
We did this.
But it wasn't just me and JJ and LKW and Myg.
It was really all of you.